One more day

I feel a heavy burden on me at the end of this trip. Last time I was ready to come home, which I am this time as well, but there is also a strong part of me that wants to stay and help these people. I see a need for more affection and time spent with these children. At times, I'm disappointed in myself for not doing more. For example, today we went to the market to get gifts for the children, but we waited until the children were already home from school. That means I lost 3-4 hours that I could have spent playing with and loving on the children. When we got back, I went to spend time with them during their studies and ended up scolding one boy (Sanju) and getting the rest yelled at by Alex. I'm just frustrated now. I hope I can be more of a positive influence/role model tomorrow.